I thought I would give blogging a try since I am learning how to express what I am feeling and want to share my life experiences and what those experiences are teaching me. Ladybug Landing is in honor of my daughter Mckenna.
10 years ago today, I experienced the second worst day of my life. I found my mother dead in her bed. Even 10 years later, when I say those words it takes my breath away. I know it's not a very delicate way to say it but it's the truth. I don't relive every detail like I did for many years. For years, following her death, I couldn't get those images out of my head. Every detail from the moment I unlocked the door, to the funeral home taking her away. Each moment played out often. What an absolutely awful day it was. The days leading up to her death also haunted me. I always felt I didn't do enough. She died sad and alone in an apt that was horrible. I had reached a point in her alcoholism of distancing myself. I couldn't handle the heartache and the broken promises and the constantly finding her drunk and the drunk phone calls. I distanced myself and she died. The what if's, the shoulda, coulda, woulda's were ruthless. I still hear her voice the last ti
I think it's a wonderful idea. And I hope you are able to do it. I want to do it with you so for the first time I am going to follow a blog....yours. I have had many opportunities and many close friends keep blogs but I never felt the extreme desire to follow someone. But somehow I am compelled to go on this journey with you. So I am here. I will stay here all night with you and I will be here for you if you need. Just holler if you need anything. I will keep the light on (and the candle lit for Braden and McKenna)
ReplyDeleteWow Billie I feel honored that you want to follow my blog. Thank you.
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