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Wow, Has It Really Been 3 years........

3 years ago today I held my beautiful daughter while her heart stopped beating, 3 years ago today I held her, kissed her and touched her for the very last time,   3 years ago today I walked out of the hospital empty handed leaving a part of me with her.   Nothing I have ever experienced in my life will ever be as painful as it has been losing Mckenna and learning to live life without her. My whole life changed and not in just the obvious ways, my mind changed, my thinking changed, I physically and emotionally change. I   touched places within myself I never knew existed. I am still amazed at the fact that I am still standing 3 years later. NEVER did I imagine I would be where I am today. I remember lying on my floor sobbing, clinging to her pajamas just trying to get through the seconds not even being able to look past the minute. In the past 3 years I have grown in ways I never thought possible. I have learned to laugh and have joy again. I have learned that this is a part of my li