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Sometimes there are people in your life that you don’t realize are the people you need the most. You try so hard to get the love and support from people that just end up not being what you need or what you thought they were. It’s the people who love you unconditionally that go unnoticed. I have always known my family loves me but never did I realize how much my sister in law loves me till this morning. I know people think about Mckenna and love her but never mention her to me at random. They don’t tell me a memory or tell me how much they miss her. I know a lot of people don’t know what to say or they don’t want bringing her up to make me sad or cry. But the smallest thing like ladybug cookies to show me that Mckenna has not been forgotten and that they love her and miss her has made my heart smile. Such a simple and kind gesture has me at a loss for words really. So take the time to remember someone’s child by doing a random act of kindness in their name or just call them and tell them you are thinking of them and their child. You will never know what that means to a bereaved parent who feels like the world has forgotten their child.  Thank you Sarah and I love you

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